Are you a secretly depressed Christian?

For almost 30 years, I struggled with clinical depression and suicidal thoughts. For 26 of those years, I was a born-again, Bible-believing Christian.  Which means, off and on, for 26 years, I was what many would consider a spiritual oxymoron – a suicidal Christian.  Are you a Christian who thinks about suicide? Can you remember what it feels like not to be depressed? Do you wish you could tell your pastor or your friend sitting next to you in church, but the shame of your “lack of f